You know those moments right as you wake up, when you’re still half a-doze? The other morning half-asleep I wailed silently, in my body, “I want my baby back!”

So there you go. While I’m basking in gorgeous fall sunshine, whistling and singing as I walk or bike along the gravel road, appreciating every moment of living where I do, loving it … I am also saying goodbye to a phase of my life that has been meaningful and enriching.

Right now he is navigating a city bus on his own for the first time, to get to the orientation setup for his courses. I struggled through the first text I’ve sent in a long time: Have a good day, Boychik.